There is a bag of chips in front of me. I don’t feel a bit hungry, and I know that if I eat more of them, this slight queasiness in my stomach won’t be slight any more. And yet, those chips are calling my name. I can almost hear them. I don’t even like potato chips.
Why do I crave things that I know will make me feel like shit, physically and emotionally? I don’t know, but it’s really annoying.
On the plus side, I think I have almost conquered my Coke relapse. I haven’t had one in three days. Hoping that lasts. I was a Coke addict for most of my life, finally kicking it six years ago… and then I fell off the wagon during the trip.
You know the lie we junkies tell ourselves: “Oh, just one won’t hurt.”
Riiiight.
Also: my blood pressure seems to be normalizing. Not sure yet, but the trend is very encouraging. Other than quitting Coke, though, I’m not sure what I’m doing right.
I bought a cheap scale but it’s impossible to weigh myself in the van and I’m embarrassed to do it outside in public, so I won’t be checking it very often. I can tell when I’m losing, though: I pee four or five times a night. I’m losing.
So all in all, I’m pleased with my progress this week, in spite of chip cravings
The next phase begins tomorrow: a green smoothie for breakfast every day. This is a hard one, resistance-wise. I love green smoothies but I hate the prep and cleanup in the van. I did some thinking about how to make that process easier, and tomorrow I’m going to start, come hell or high water. As some old guy once said, “Begin it now.”
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Hi, LaVonne,
I read “Nomadland” recently and was pleased to find your blog. Really enjoy reading your stuff (and it’s refreshing to read well-written stuff!) My hubby and I plan to be full-timers in the near future in our schoolie, so it’s good for us to see the “realness” of life on the road. As for your current project/goal… Sounds like from another post you wrote a few years ago that if you set consequences for yourself, you’re more likely to complete it? =) I know I struggle with what you’re struggling with, too. Have you ever read or listened to Dr. Susan Pierce Thompson? Amazing work regarding food addiction and why it’s so hard to lose weight.
At any rate, best of luck to you and take care of yourself!
Sarah
Hi Sarah! That is so funny that you mention Dr. Thompson because I just found out about her yesterday and have been watching her videos this morning. She makes total sense!
Good luck with your skoolie and I hope we meet on the road one of these days. 🙂
Thanks, LaVonne, and hope to meet you, too! =)
Dearest LaVonne, I hope you have been well. I’m sad, because my other USA blog friend DotLizard, Karen Diane Kelly, has passed away. I don’t know if you chatted to her or not, but she was funny and wise and just a cool chick.
My own memory problems are getting worse, but I do have better days from time to time.
My advise to anyone is if you want to do something, GET ON WITH IT, you never know when something will affect your health. Time is sneaky, it makes you believe you have plenty left, then just when you need more its over.
Anyway, Merry Christmas, LaVonne, and happy journeys.
BFG
Oh no, I’m so sorry to hear about KD’s passing! I haven’t been in contact with her for years but I have fond memories of our time as an online community, thanks to her leadership. I wish it could have lasted.
Thank you, and Merry Christmas to you!